How could I possibly have missed it for such a long time now? I just haven't been looking in the right place... I've been so focused deep inward that I couldn't see this staring me in the face. I spent a lot of my life learning about the natures of pain and chaos. I had built this weird tolerance for them, so they had to get pretty bad for me to notice sometimes. I have been growing and changing and learning a lot now, but not always aware of the lessons I was supposed to actively seek and so hypervigilant out of habit that I just couldn't chill out. But the time has finally come to learn about the nature of love and compassion, in all of their forms. I still thought it was all about me. I was wrong! These are the most important life lessons I am meant to learn! It dawned on me as I was feeling my awareness of the little red jade Kwan Yin hanging around my neck on a self-knotted silk string of pearls and carnelians. It has been a rebirth process of sorts... I have certainly been meeting a lot of my small child self and learning how to hear her sweet voice and take care of her. And so I can see now that the next phase has truly begun! I'm sooooo grateful!
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